LEYVA
Stage 1: Personal Neighborhood Research
Neighborhood: a place that inhabits many different types of communities that include different types of individuals
Community: a place that unites different individuals with common and sometimes varied interests
Environment: an aggregate of different surrounding things, influences, or conditions
Nature: the universe along with all of its phenomena
When I think about these different aspects of a neighborhood, them being the various communities and environments, I noticed that there is not one single definition of what a neighborhood can be or what it can consist of. If an individual were to ask another individual what a neighborhood is, I can almost guarantee that his/her definition would be different. A neighborhood, in my opinion, represents a place in which an individual may discover or understand him/herself . It usually represents a place filled with comfort, joy, happiness (if that can even be attained), and unity. Without these concepts, this "neighborhood" becomes a place that an individual just so happens to live in. There would not be a connection between the individual and the neighborhood; furthermore, a sense of security would not be present because the individual may not want to associate him/herself with the area that they live in.
One might ask, "Why would a person not want to associate themselves within the area that they live in?" My answer to this questions would be that there isn't a form of safety or security present, or the individual does not feel welcomed or comfortable in this neighborhood. I say this because some people, such as myself, do not associate with the places they live in; and, this is due to the fact that they may not feel comfortable or accepted within the neighborhood that they live in. I never really tell people where I live because of the judgement I have received from others before. And, because I felt, and sometimes still feel, ashamed. Whenever I told someone where I lived, it would always be followed by, "It's okay because my father lives on Riverside Drive." Riverside is an area that is usually associated with wealth and being "well off." I felt the need to include this because I did not want anyone feeling sorry for me because I lived in a "bad" neighborhood or judging me for living in this type of neighborhood. In addition to telling these people where I lived, the comments I would always receive include, "But you aren't ghetto like all of the people that live there," or, "Are you sure you live there? You don't really dress or act like people from there." This would piss me off because they, the people that were commenting, generalized the people living in this area; not everyone living there dresses or acts the same way. And, I think as a result of not wanting to associate with others in my neighborhood, I tend to be more guarded with how I feel and a little more aware of my surroundings. What I mean by "being more guarded" is, I do not really like to be open with how I am feeling because of how hostile some people living in my neighborhood can be; it is kind of like a reflex. But, according to the definitions listed above, I am a part of my neighborhood because I represent the "different" type of person living there, one that will not "conform" to the area around me; I am a part of my community, one that does not want to associate with the types of people that are considered "ghetto"; and, I am a part of the environment surrounding me because there are many things (people, attitudes, stereotypes, etc) that have influences my wanting being who I am and not what my neighborhood makes me.
Community: a place that unites different individuals with common and sometimes varied interests
Environment: an aggregate of different surrounding things, influences, or conditions
Nature: the universe along with all of its phenomena
When I think about these different aspects of a neighborhood, them being the various communities and environments, I noticed that there is not one single definition of what a neighborhood can be or what it can consist of. If an individual were to ask another individual what a neighborhood is, I can almost guarantee that his/her definition would be different. A neighborhood, in my opinion, represents a place in which an individual may discover or understand him/herself . It usually represents a place filled with comfort, joy, happiness (if that can even be attained), and unity. Without these concepts, this "neighborhood" becomes a place that an individual just so happens to live in. There would not be a connection between the individual and the neighborhood; furthermore, a sense of security would not be present because the individual may not want to associate him/herself with the area that they live in.
One might ask, "Why would a person not want to associate themselves within the area that they live in?" My answer to this questions would be that there isn't a form of safety or security present, or the individual does not feel welcomed or comfortable in this neighborhood. I say this because some people, such as myself, do not associate with the places they live in; and, this is due to the fact that they may not feel comfortable or accepted within the neighborhood that they live in. I never really tell people where I live because of the judgement I have received from others before. And, because I felt, and sometimes still feel, ashamed. Whenever I told someone where I lived, it would always be followed by, "It's okay because my father lives on Riverside Drive." Riverside is an area that is usually associated with wealth and being "well off." I felt the need to include this because I did not want anyone feeling sorry for me because I lived in a "bad" neighborhood or judging me for living in this type of neighborhood. In addition to telling these people where I lived, the comments I would always receive include, "But you aren't ghetto like all of the people that live there," or, "Are you sure you live there? You don't really dress or act like people from there." This would piss me off because they, the people that were commenting, generalized the people living in this area; not everyone living there dresses or acts the same way. And, I think as a result of not wanting to associate with others in my neighborhood, I tend to be more guarded with how I feel and a little more aware of my surroundings. What I mean by "being more guarded" is, I do not really like to be open with how I am feeling because of how hostile some people living in my neighborhood can be; it is kind of like a reflex. But, according to the definitions listed above, I am a part of my neighborhood because I represent the "different" type of person living there, one that will not "conform" to the area around me; I am a part of my community, one that does not want to associate with the types of people that are considered "ghetto"; and, I am a part of the environment surrounding me because there are many things (people, attitudes, stereotypes, etc) that have influences my wanting being who I am and not what my neighborhood makes me.
I do not think I have influenced any type of change or reaction in my neighborhood because of my wanting to distance myself from it and its people. I shy away from any neighborhood gatherings or events because I have always been told that bad things have happened at these events. So, as a result, I would stay home and read books or listen to music in order to not listen to the "bad things" that were about to happen. Although I have not influenced my neighborhood, I feel as though my neighborhood has definitely influenced how I am around people and my attitude towards certain things. I have always been told to say hi and not make "dirty" faces because I never knew who would be looking at me and what their intentions were. I had to put on this facade in order to get home safely and avoid any problems. I think, as a result of this, I tend to put on this fake face and tell everyone that everything is okay even though there could obviously be a problem. Although, this isn't always a good thing, it has become who I am as an individual.
Why do many individuals try to conform to their neighborhoods? Why not? Do these neighborhoods BECOME who we are or ADD to our individuality?
Why do many individuals try to conform to their neighborhoods? Why not? Do these neighborhoods BECOME who we are or ADD to our individuality?
Stage 2: Mental Mapping (ADJM), Themes, Person Reflection
When I initially thought about the words environment, the definition I came up with was "an aggregate of different surrounding things, influences, or conditions"; for the word neighborhood, I thought that a proper definition for it would be "a place that inhabits many different types of communities that include different types of individual." These past few weeks, as a class, we have been working on neighborhood research. This research consisted of creating a map that represented how each student saw their neighborhood, a presentation to other students from different boroughs, a collection of data which concentrated on the different aspects of each person's neighborhood, and researching and assigning themes and codes that represented each person's neighborhood.
While doing this mental mapping project I was very afraid of talking about my neighborhood. The three members of the group I was in (Hestia, Bethany, and Sophia) all lived in really "nice" neighborhoods that most people wanted to go to - I didn't. So, it was definitely hard for me to want to describe my neighborhood and the events that occur in my neighborhood because it's not the type of environment most people would want to be in. I had to get out of my comfort zone and talk about this with other people that I though would judge me because I lived in this "bad neighborhood". When I was presenting, I felt myself shaking and choking up because out of the 1,300 students in our school, only two people have been to my neighborhood. It was scary to think that another 3 people would know the secret of where I lived and why I kept it a secret. In the end, although I still kind of regret the fact that I didn't make up some neighborhood that people liked and would appreciate and not judge, I am proud of myself for actually facing one of my fears and going through with this research and ending it successfully.
As the research is coming to an end, what I took away from it that many people live in different places that can portray the same ideas. For example the idea of an escape was evident in almost everyone's maps and thoughts when the idea was presented to the class. When we came together and talked about the different themes that came up within peoples' maps, the idea of having a place (physical or not)to run to when one does not want to be at home. Another idea that came up was the idea that emotions play an important role in how individuals can express where they live and how they associate themselves in the neighborhood that they live in. However, after the themes were presented I had a couple of questions that made me think about how everyone can have a different perspective on how they view his/her neighborhood: what kind of data would we have gotten if this research was done on adults? if an individual's cultural identity isn't represented in their neighborhood, where could the person go to feel comfortable or accepted? where is the individual's escape? how does it affect the way he/she feels about his/her sense of community and acceptance? I think that with these questions, I would conduct an entirely new "experiment" in order to answer these questions. But, for the research project that was just conducted, I would definitely share the results, specifically, with adults because I think it allow them to think about how we feel in terms of how our neighborhoods affect us and what they could do in order to help a student feel accepted and comfortable.
When research is conducted on the youth/teenagers, it is always about them, rather than with them; consequently, the results presented are not accurate in a sense that they did not portray the voices of the teens (the real story isn't shared, it's the story that has been filtered through ears that wanted to hear only specific things.) Because this research was conducted by us students, I think the results are more solid and concrete because our voices were the ones that were heard, not filtered through the ears of an adult. This methodology of research was beneficial and effective, in my opinion, because our voices were finally represented the correct way, and when it comes to neighborhood research the perspective of teenagers aren't used as much as they should be. Another way we could have presented this research could have been taking physical pictures of our neighborhoods and having others guess that each place meant to us and whether or not it affected us in anyway. But, all in all, I enjoyed learning about how other teens felt about the "nicest" and "worst" places in their neighborhoods.
While doing this mental mapping project I was very afraid of talking about my neighborhood. The three members of the group I was in (Hestia, Bethany, and Sophia) all lived in really "nice" neighborhoods that most people wanted to go to - I didn't. So, it was definitely hard for me to want to describe my neighborhood and the events that occur in my neighborhood because it's not the type of environment most people would want to be in. I had to get out of my comfort zone and talk about this with other people that I though would judge me because I lived in this "bad neighborhood". When I was presenting, I felt myself shaking and choking up because out of the 1,300 students in our school, only two people have been to my neighborhood. It was scary to think that another 3 people would know the secret of where I lived and why I kept it a secret. In the end, although I still kind of regret the fact that I didn't make up some neighborhood that people liked and would appreciate and not judge, I am proud of myself for actually facing one of my fears and going through with this research and ending it successfully.
As the research is coming to an end, what I took away from it that many people live in different places that can portray the same ideas. For example the idea of an escape was evident in almost everyone's maps and thoughts when the idea was presented to the class. When we came together and talked about the different themes that came up within peoples' maps, the idea of having a place (physical or not)to run to when one does not want to be at home. Another idea that came up was the idea that emotions play an important role in how individuals can express where they live and how they associate themselves in the neighborhood that they live in. However, after the themes were presented I had a couple of questions that made me think about how everyone can have a different perspective on how they view his/her neighborhood: what kind of data would we have gotten if this research was done on adults? if an individual's cultural identity isn't represented in their neighborhood, where could the person go to feel comfortable or accepted? where is the individual's escape? how does it affect the way he/she feels about his/her sense of community and acceptance? I think that with these questions, I would conduct an entirely new "experiment" in order to answer these questions. But, for the research project that was just conducted, I would definitely share the results, specifically, with adults because I think it allow them to think about how we feel in terms of how our neighborhoods affect us and what they could do in order to help a student feel accepted and comfortable.
When research is conducted on the youth/teenagers, it is always about them, rather than with them; consequently, the results presented are not accurate in a sense that they did not portray the voices of the teens (the real story isn't shared, it's the story that has been filtered through ears that wanted to hear only specific things.) Because this research was conducted by us students, I think the results are more solid and concrete because our voices were the ones that were heard, not filtered through the ears of an adult. This methodology of research was beneficial and effective, in my opinion, because our voices were finally represented the correct way, and when it comes to neighborhood research the perspective of teenagers aren't used as much as they should be. Another way we could have presented this research could have been taking physical pictures of our neighborhoods and having others guess that each place meant to us and whether or not it affected us in anyway. But, all in all, I enjoyed learning about how other teens felt about the "nicest" and "worst" places in their neighborhoods.
AD BUSTERS
METHODOLOGY
Collection of Data
Over the Thanksgiving Break I had to find different advertisements that I encountered on a daily basis (whether it was in an email sent from different companies, billboards, etc.). When I began looking for different ads, I decided that I wanted to take a look at different ads from the 1950s and 1960s, rather than only looking at ads that I would be seeing on a day to day basis. On Black Friday, I walked into this vintage store in Bedford (Brooklyn), and I found a lot of ads that probably (most definitely) be questioned and ridiculed in today's society. Many of them were sexist and very degrading towards women. Some of these ads had nothing to with women, in general, and still decided to include something that degraded and undermined women. Once I finished taking pictures of these old advertisements, I walked around my neighborhood, my cousin's neighborhood, and other places that I just so happened to be to find different ads. I noticed that there were a lot of ads about how to be flawless, perfect, and beautiful. These ads were for different facial/bodily products (makeup, facial wash, body creams), clothing (or the lack of), cigarettes, alcohol, etc.
Data Analysis
Content Analysis. Once I found all of the advertisements that I would need for the analysis, I decided that I would created different themes that I saw within each ad and how many times each theme was present within the ad. The themes I came up with were: Beauty/Fragrances, Entertainment, Health, Food/Drink, Clothing/Accessory, Services (anything that was telling the consumer to buy something that wasn't a necessity, such as cigarettes, appliances, etc.). Along with the themes, I also decided to determine what the target audience was in order for me and others looking at these ads to understand the message that was being portrayed and way a product would only be available or presented to a specific group of people who are willing to (more like forced) spend money on a product. Because I came up with different categories, I had to determine which ads would best fit which theme. For example, when I saw something about acne or teeth, I would put them in the Beauty AND Health categories because of the messages being presented within each ad (in this case it would be that having acne or "bad' teeth was not beautiful and can effect your health).
Critical Discourse Analysis. When I had to choose one ad to analyze individually, I decided that I would choose one of the ads from the 1950s and 1960s. This seemed like a good decision because I was not physically exposed to this type of ad because I am a child of this generation. I went looking for this type of ad because I knew that the message being presented would have been more explicit than the ones of my generation. For this ad, which is displayed to the left, I decided to analyze what types of messages this ad was presenting, who the target audience was, what the ad was actually trying to sell, and what methods this ad used in order to persuade the consumer to buy the product.
FINDINGS/RESULTS
Content Analysis. When I was collecting data, I was not at all surprised at the results I was receiving. Most of the ads that I had pinpointed the imperfections of individuals, more specifically women, and how these individuals were able to fix or get rid of there imperfections with the advertiser's products. Many of these ads, especially the beauty ads, had before pictures of people that were unhappy with their imperfections and after pictures with people that looked happy and more content with themselves because of the product. I though that these types of ads provided false hope for people that would fall for the traps that these companies would set. Other thing I was not surprised by was having the most ads present the theme of Beauty. In the society that we live in today beauty is the basis of survival. The idea is that if you are considered beautiful you will achieve more, receive more, and ultimately be more than a person that is considered unattractive or ugly. Because this idea has become an important factor in our society, different companies take advantage of that and target people that fit the characteristics of being unattractive (which are, not my own personal opinion, obesity, scars, birthmarks, blemishes, injuries, asymmetrical facial features, big nose, big ears, eyes too close/far apart, big lips,etc.) and sell that products that could "potentially" get rid of this imperfection and unattractiveness.
Critical Discourse Analysis. Since the words at the bottom of the ad are not visible, I am going to place them here: "Though she was a tiger lady, our hero didn't have to fire a shot to floor her. After one look at his Mr. Leggs slacks, she was ready to have him walk all over her. That noble styling sure soothes the savage heart! If you'd like your own doll-to-doll carpeting, hunt up a pair of these he-man Mr. Leggs slacks. Such as our new automatic wash-wear blend of 65% "Dacron" and 35% rayon - incomparably wrinkle-resistant. About $12.95 at plush-carpeted stores." When I saw the image on the ad, I knew automatically that this was going to be something about men being lesser than women. However, when I read the words at the bottom of the ad, I realized that this was an ad about slacks and why the consumer, which is obviously a male, should buy these slacks. The message presented was very overt in that it basically stated that "you have power over every women in the world and that is why you should buy our slacks." Instead of explicitly saying those words they decided to make the man stand on the woman to portray the idea that man has conquered woman. Because this ad was produced in an era where it was okay to be openly sexist (it was the norm to see ads like this one, which were very prevalent), I was not surprised by this message. In this time period. men were seen as the "bread-winners," the "almighty"; women were seen as caregivers and housekeepers/makers, and this ad was a representation of that. Although the concept of sexism has diminished, nowadays I would say that the concept of sexism in ads is more covert because of the amount of people that are aware of the issue.
Critical Discourse Analysis. Since the words at the bottom of the ad are not visible, I am going to place them here: "Though she was a tiger lady, our hero didn't have to fire a shot to floor her. After one look at his Mr. Leggs slacks, she was ready to have him walk all over her. That noble styling sure soothes the savage heart! If you'd like your own doll-to-doll carpeting, hunt up a pair of these he-man Mr. Leggs slacks. Such as our new automatic wash-wear blend of 65% "Dacron" and 35% rayon - incomparably wrinkle-resistant. About $12.95 at plush-carpeted stores." When I saw the image on the ad, I knew automatically that this was going to be something about men being lesser than women. However, when I read the words at the bottom of the ad, I realized that this was an ad about slacks and why the consumer, which is obviously a male, should buy these slacks. The message presented was very overt in that it basically stated that "you have power over every women in the world and that is why you should buy our slacks." Instead of explicitly saying those words they decided to make the man stand on the woman to portray the idea that man has conquered woman. Because this ad was produced in an era where it was okay to be openly sexist (it was the norm to see ads like this one, which were very prevalent), I was not surprised by this message. In this time period. men were seen as the "bread-winners," the "almighty"; women were seen as caregivers and housekeepers/makers, and this ad was a representation of that. Although the concept of sexism has diminished, nowadays I would say that the concept of sexism in ads is more covert because of the amount of people that are aware of the issue.
DISCUSSION
At the start of this project, I was very confused on how I was going to have to take pictures of ads that I saw. Because everything in this class has purpose and meaning in my life, I knew that this was either going to effect me personally or everyone around me. Before I began taking pictures, I honestly thought that ads didn't accept me (mind you I was wearing sweatpants that clearly states Adidas on them: WALKING ADVERTISEMENT). I was flabbergasted by the amount of ads that are presented to people on a day to day basis. The average American sees anywhere from 3,000, to 20,000 ads per day. And here I was thinking that I wasn't at all affected by the ads that apparently consume about 70% of my vision per day. I learned that ads have a way with toying with peoples emotions and can cause people to become consumption addicts because of the things that are promised to the people that are willing to spend money on these products that will most definitely not last a lifetime. I also learned that it is absolutely impossible to avoid an ad because when I was looking for ads to take pictures of, they were literally everywhere, and it was overwhelming because I didn't expect to see so many all at once.
I feel as though the major of ads that are in the industry are sending seemingly positive (but are covertly negative) on beauty and how one's appearance can be altered. Most of the ads in the industry are about clothes, makeup, food drinks, and personal hygiene. Each ad about these categories all present different aspects of beauty: facial features and physic. Effects of beauty are almost outrageous in today’s society. People are constantly being judged based upon their looks and being placed into categories of “attractive” and “unattractive” or simply, “pretty” and “ugly”. Effects of beauty are mostly on teens or around the age where people start to grasp the very wrong but well known idea, that beauty is everything. Beauty affects everything; it affects your career and your life. And, ads do a pretty good judge of projecting what this standard of beauty is. I do not think this should be the message companies should be sending to the public because the people that are targeted, which are usually people in their teens or a little older, are at a stage where they are trying to discover themselves, and if something tells then that they aren't okay the way they are, it can lead to a low esteem and more.
After the analysis of this project was done, I still have so many questions as to why companies market products the way that they do. Is the target audience only limited to the younger generation? Why are the messages of sexism, racism, ableism, and more still prevalent in the ads of this era? Why do advertisers pinpoint and nitpick at people's imperfections? Are there different ways of advertising products, instead of the usual putting others down in order to bring the company? Why do consumers fall for the tricks that companies pull on them? Why are different things advertised considered to be a necessity to different people?
I feel as though the major of ads that are in the industry are sending seemingly positive (but are covertly negative) on beauty and how one's appearance can be altered. Most of the ads in the industry are about clothes, makeup, food drinks, and personal hygiene. Each ad about these categories all present different aspects of beauty: facial features and physic. Effects of beauty are almost outrageous in today’s society. People are constantly being judged based upon their looks and being placed into categories of “attractive” and “unattractive” or simply, “pretty” and “ugly”. Effects of beauty are mostly on teens or around the age where people start to grasp the very wrong but well known idea, that beauty is everything. Beauty affects everything; it affects your career and your life. And, ads do a pretty good judge of projecting what this standard of beauty is. I do not think this should be the message companies should be sending to the public because the people that are targeted, which are usually people in their teens or a little older, are at a stage where they are trying to discover themselves, and if something tells then that they aren't okay the way they are, it can lead to a low esteem and more.
After the analysis of this project was done, I still have so many questions as to why companies market products the way that they do. Is the target audience only limited to the younger generation? Why are the messages of sexism, racism, ableism, and more still prevalent in the ads of this era? Why do advertisers pinpoint and nitpick at people's imperfections? Are there different ways of advertising products, instead of the usual putting others down in order to bring the company? Why do consumers fall for the tricks that companies pull on them? Why are different things advertised considered to be a necessity to different people?
SOCIAL ACTION RESEARCH PROJECT REFLECTION
When we began this program, I didn't think that doing this project would do anything for me or the social issue we were supposed to be raising awareness to. I thought that because we were teens and people usually do not listen to what we had to say, due to my experience, this project would be another on of those things that people would look at and ignore. My group and I decided to target the issue of how advertisements affect how people see themselves. At first, I did not really want to do this because, again, I thought people were not going to listen to us. We interviewed a couple and girls and boys that were our age to see how they felt about it. The females said what I though they would say: it's degrading to women, it makes young females feel as if they are worthless and have to look at models in order to be accepted in, etc. However, I started to take interest in the project when we began interviewing the guys. I never asked a guy what they feel about these ads and how these ads affected women. It was interesting to here what they said because we usually do not ask them how they feel. After we finished the project, I really wanted to get this out to people because I feel as if this is an important issue that we have to address. Advertisements are a basically a representation how people should look; and, I don't that this is the message that companies should be giving people.
NEIGHBORHOOD RESEARCH REFLECTION
FAVORITE PLACES: Because I have lived in my neighborhood for about 4+ years, people would think that I hang out or around my neighborhood...but I don't. Because my neighborhood is considered "unsafe", I always tried to stay away from the people and the environment because it is "better for my well being" to hang out in a safe neighborhood. I usually hang out around the piers on the north side of Williamsburg (North 5st and Kent Avenue) or at the LIC piers because they are in safe and gentrified neighborhoods. I would always go there and hang out with friends or just to chill out and write poetry or music because it is such a relaxing scene. Whenever I do end up going there I feel as if I belong in this neighborhood because it is so calm and relaxing. yes, I know that something bad can happen anywhere, but it is more likely that something bad will happen in my neighborhood, than in this safer neighborhood.
LEAST FAVORITE PLACES: My least favorite place in my neighborhood has to be the actual space around my building. There are always these random guys that stand in or around the building and holler at people. Some of them look like they should be going to school because they look to be anywhere from 15 to 18 years old. When I come home from school, I always find different routes to go home because I hate crossing paths with them because I don't want to be bothered by them. I know that sounds bad, but it has been my reality for a long time.
IDEAL PLACES: I honestly do not have an ideal neighborhood because I have been focused on getting out of the one I am in now. However, if I were to live in any other neighborhood than mine, I would want to live in "hipsterville" Bedford because that neighborhood is really artisty and chill; and, I feel as if I will feel the most comfortable around the people in that neighborhood. I should be able to express myself and accept who I am as a person, and I don't think my neighborhood has allowed me to do that.
IMPROVEMENTS: I don't think I would improve anything in my neighborhood because I want to leave that area. And, if I were to improve it that would involve moving people who I think are "killing" the neighborhood and move in peoplewho would "better" the neighborhood, but I feel that doing this would involve gentrification, which is wrong. So, I don't think I wshould do that; I just want to leave.
LEAST FAVORITE PLACES: My least favorite place in my neighborhood has to be the actual space around my building. There are always these random guys that stand in or around the building and holler at people. Some of them look like they should be going to school because they look to be anywhere from 15 to 18 years old. When I come home from school, I always find different routes to go home because I hate crossing paths with them because I don't want to be bothered by them. I know that sounds bad, but it has been my reality for a long time.
IDEAL PLACES: I honestly do not have an ideal neighborhood because I have been focused on getting out of the one I am in now. However, if I were to live in any other neighborhood than mine, I would want to live in "hipsterville" Bedford because that neighborhood is really artisty and chill; and, I feel as if I will feel the most comfortable around the people in that neighborhood. I should be able to express myself and accept who I am as a person, and I don't think my neighborhood has allowed me to do that.
IMPROVEMENTS: I don't think I would improve anything in my neighborhood because I want to leave that area. And, if I were to improve it that would involve moving people who I think are "killing" the neighborhood and move in peoplewho would "better" the neighborhood, but I feel that doing this would involve gentrification, which is wrong. So, I don't think I wshould do that; I just want to leave.